Older Pt. 2
- I never planned to be this old. I never planned to grow up. Not with the jobs or marriage or kids. In my head I will never get there, thinking that I will probably die before that time would come. Death seems to be a better end than life. I immersed myself in dreams of grandeur. I wanted to achieve everything while young. I always felt I am running out of time for my dreams.
- It makes me wonder, however, if I somehow do achieve everything while I’m young, what else would there be left to want as I grow older? Everything would be a parody of things I wanted. I would be indulging in the leftovers of my desires. I realized then, that the fruit of one’s labor is the labor itself, and everything else is just scrap. And funny in this sense, I am thankful I haven’t achieved my dreams yet, scared of running out, not of time, but dreams.
- -July 27 2009
Older Pt. 2
- I never planned to be this old. I never planned to grow up. Not with the jobs or marriage or kids. In my head I will never get there, thinking that I will probably die before that time would come. Death seems to be a better end than life. I immersed myself in dreams of grandeur. I wanted to achieve everything while young. I always felt I am running out of time for my dreams.
- It makes me wonder, however, if I somehow do achieve everything while I’m young, what else would there be left to want as I grow older? Everything would be a parody of things I wanted. I would be indulging in the leftovers of my desires. I realized then, that the fruit of one’s labor is the labor itself, and everything else is just scrap. And funny in this sense, I am thankful I haven’t achieved my dreams yet, scared of running out, not of time, but dreams.
- -July 27 2009
